I can’t believe it’s been several months since I've written. I couldn’t. I simply couldn’t. I wanted to, I would try to sit down and write, and simply couldn’t. I know that it would be easy to say ‘procrastination’ and make myself wrong about it but when I drop in and explore that with my knowing, there is no trueness to it. Rather, there has been an alignment to an energy, a calling, an invitation to be with a profoundly deep force/movement/power that has been moving through many of us. We have been sitting in the void, being made anew. Growing, becoming, rooting deep, for what is to come.
And yes, it is April and a quarter of this year is already complete, but this year it really does feel that the year started at the beginning of April. I feel like I am emerging with the spring blossoms, experiencing a new willingness and readiness to be seen, to show up, to be counted amongst those who are rising.
Where and when have you made yourself wrong my love? When in fact, you were deeply and utterly aligned to something beautiful and powerful that was moving through you that just needed its time.
We are so conditioned to ‘make it happen’, ‘do it now’ that it is not instinctual to honor the seasons that are moving through us.
To listen deep and fully trust that we will move into ‘doing’ at exactly the right time for us.
Effortless aligned action flows from a fullness of Being, from the bud that is ready to blossom.
Can you honor your own unique dance with the flow of time?
These last months have been challenging. I have been stretched, pummeled, taken apart and put back together what feels like countless times. Every time I reached a moment of stasis, the shape of me morphed once again.
Who and what am I? That’s such a deep question to be with for me.
Who and what am I? As I constantly move from one fluid state to another.
And there have been so many gifts that have been emerging. The power that is moving through my body amazes and delights me. When I step onto the dance floor and allow myself to move, I realize that I have come to a space of embodiment of the All that I Am in a way that I have desired yet not fully understood thus far.
There is a sense of ‘I am here. I have arrived.’
Last week-end, I lay in bed and whispered: 'What do you know sweet body, what do you know? Show me.' Little did I know that I would be opening the door to a 48 hour body tutorial with wave after wave of body talk emerging from my body. I lay there whispering: ‘I understand, thank-you for showing me, oh wow, how could I not have known that, thank-you', and on and on and on… Body magic.
And if I go even deeper, I perceive the deep inner calibration that has been occurring between the Infinite Being that I Am and my human being self. What this translates into is a profound release from old woundings and patterns. Unworthiness, not feeling good enough to take the space that my body of work is asking of me seem to be shapes that no longer fit. Without knowing it, I outgrew those patterns whilst sitting in that deep dark space of stillness and silence.
And so, here I am. Available. Present. Ready for whatever it is that comes next.
And you my love?
Are you claiming the gifts that have been growing within you?
Are you ready to allow them to flow through you into the world?
Are you listening deep and honoring the right timing of all things within yourself?
No rush. No push. Simply a surrendered allowance of that which wants to be. Through you.
You my love are a gift to the world.
I share with you a video that touched me deeply and speaks to the energy of the words above. There is such beauty in our movements, even when they are constrained within a force that feels bigger than us.