I still remember that evening some years ago (I forget the exact year). It was new year's eve, I was sitting in front of a roaring fire going through both my day planner and my diary as a way to remember the year past before I let it go to step into the newness that was beckoning.
As I was reading, my heart sank as I realized how much weight I was giving on a daily basis to things that were challenging and felt contractive in some way, and how little I celebrated and gave thanks for all the beauty in my life.
That moment was a turning point. From that day onwards, for years, every night before I went to sleep, I would write down something beautiful that had happened, something that uplifted my heart and allowed me to feel grateful.
What you focus on grows. It really does. Did my life change? Not necessarily, but my experience of my life changed. I changed. Gratitude started to become the norm, a default state more often than not. As I was constantly looking for things to be grateful for, I started living in that state of Grace. Because that is really what is is: Grace.
Fast forwards a few years. Beauty started calling my name. I can't remember exactly why or when but one day (this is after I got an I-phone, smiles), I decided that I would have a 'beauty moment' in every day, no matter what. I would take a moment in every day to pick up my phone and go and look for something beautiful to photograph. When I found it, I would give myself over to it completely. Sit with it, celebrate it, love it, expand it, deepen it. I would immerse myself in it until I felt saturated by the beauty of that moment. And then I would go back to my day.
This 'beauty moment' had the same impact as writing down what I was grateful for in a day. It expanded and grew until so much of my life became about the exploration, the experience, the devotion and surrender to beauty.
Beauty and gratitude have become my constant companions. They are always there, offering me their grace. It is the cultivation of these practices that sustained me in the months that I was so very sick. That held out a lifeline to joy and light, even when I couldn't get out of bed.
I recently wrote to a client, 'it's (the road to happiness) not all about the energy work. It's about an alignment between one's inner landscape and what one cultivates in one's external reality.'
Thanksgiving is around the corner and I am so grateful that I can surrender myself into the larger collective field of gratitude. To give thanks. To remember Grace. And yes, I have booked a cottage near the beach and curated beauty to amplify the field of exquisiteness, smiles.
No matter what is unfolding in our lives, we all have choice. Of what we focus on, what we surrender to, what we live in the name of.
Thank-you so very much for allowing me into your world. For allowing me to write to you. For allowing me to feel that connection that binds us together.
Have you ever experienced LIFE pouring through you?
Love seeping into you through the molecules in the air?
Feeling energy revitalize your cells as the old releases out from the inside out.
Have you ever felt so deeply loved by life that you knew that no matter what happened, you were going to be fine. That life had your back.
Have you ever wanted to laugh and cry all at the same time because you felt you understood something at the very heart of this experience of life, even if you didn't have the words for it.
Because you are here, because you are reading this, I know that you've tasted at the very least a tiny morsel of what this is. I know you've opened to the mystery and even the mastery of it, even if you don't use that word. I know you know this dance. Even if it's just in a remembering through these words.
Join me this Sunday at 6 pm pacific time, 9 pm EST as we deep dive into this cosmic dance of LIFE.
This time of year is a fulcrum point for me.
I remember so vividly partaking in a day of the dead celebration last year.
My first experience of this energy.
Out of simple curiosity, I opened myself to it.
The energetic portal that is available at this time of year.
I had already been told that I was very very sick.
I was already spending most of my time in bed.
I didn't feel that I had anything to loose.
What unfolded was the most unexpected exquisite gift that I could ever be given.
As I opened to the energy of death, I felt LIFE pour into me. I felt exhilarated, revitalized, LOVED BY LIFE in a way that I had never felt before.
I had opened the doorway that would lead to knowing not just how to heal my body, and how to pour life through it by dancing with death, but how to truly LIVE in the slipstreams of exquisiteness.
How to let joy flow through me until I felt like I was dissolving with the sheer exuberance and ecstasy of it.
These are the energies that we are going to be dancing with. The energies of LIFE in its FULL spectrum that allowed me to heal my physical body of diabetes, kidney failure, heart disease, early stages of Alzheimers and M.S to name a few.
Please join me. We are going to be extraordinary.
Sunday the 3rd of November, 6 pm pacific, 9 pm EST. for 45 minutes
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